sometimes i wonder

so i'm sitting in a meeting in Milwaukee yesterday afternoon with all the techno-babble you'd ever want to listen to. after a while it just sounded like blah, blah, blah to me. then i started thinking, "what am i doing?" a thousand miles away from anyone i love or really care about. another day is ticking by and i haven't kissed my wife. i haven't hugged my son, daughter or son-in-law. i haven't chased or tickled my grand babies in weeks. i hate those moments. and for a fleeting moment i even imagined standing up and saying, "you know what, this just isn't that interesting to me." . . . and then walking out the door and heading to the airport. then someone said something in the meeting that must have gotten my attention. ugh! escape was so close!